I am donating 50% of this painting’s sale price to the Parkinson Alberta Society!
From Sun Feb 24 through Sat Mar 23, I will be creating one painting per day
and donating 50% of my sales to Parkinson Alberta Society.
Yesterday was a ‘changing day’ for me. For a long time I’ve been stuck in a place of making things so hard for myself with my art. And the scary thing was I didn’t even realize it. I figured that if I wasn’t breaking my brain trying to accomplish something, then . . . well, I don’t know the ‘then’. I think I figured that if I wasn’t agonizing over perspective, value, temperature – all the ‘technical’ aspects about my style of painting – then I wasn’t growing as an artist. I was still enjoying it, and finding it fulfilling and meaningful. But to me, painting was about analyzing what was right and wrong, working and not working about my paintings, then fixing it. And there wasn’t peace or freedom there.
Of course there’s value in working on technical skills. All artists work on their technical skills and it helps us grown and learn. But I think I was perilously close to being in that technical place and ONLY in that place when I was painting. There was no room for me to be with and accept my feelings – good or bad – while I was painting. There was no room for me to paint without a constant inner dialogue of critique and self-judgement.
Anyways, yesterday I had planned to paint. But I was tired from a busy work week, and rather dis-spirited. I couldn’t seem to pull myself out of it, so I felt I ‘couldn’t’ go to my studio and paint. I believed in that state, I wouldn’t be able to create anything that was artistic or creative because I was too tired to be able to adhere to all my rules about creating art. ‘Surely’ nothing ‘worthwhile; would come from my easel in such a state!
But thank my stars, I started chatting with friend and fellow painter, Belinda Fireman. Her insights and support helped me gain a little perspective and start letting go of some those rules I had for myself. The result of this conversation was that I ventured into painting something intuitively, and this little piece, ‘Where Paintings Come From’ was the result. (PS You really need to go see Belinda’s work – her website is called ‘Drawn from the Fire’ at: www.belindafireman.wordpress.com. She’s also got a page on Facebook, where she auctions off her beautiful work from time to time – visit her there at: www.facebook.com/firemanbell)
Well I’m off to the studio. Feel a little nervous – going to try some intuitive painting again. But happy too. Thanks so much for reading – you all are yet another reason why I love to paint. Best, Cheryl.